Demi Mooreis admitting to a past “infidelity” in her revealingnew memoirInside Out.

In the book, the actress, 56, recalls her whirlwind marriage to musician Freddy Moore, 69, and how being unfaithful forced her to face some hard truths about her life. She was just 18 when they married in 1980; they divorced in 1985.

“The night before we got married, instead of working on my vows, I was calling a guy I’d met on a movie set,” Moore writes. “I snuck out of my own bachelorette party and went to his apartment.”

“Why did I do that? Why didn’t I go and see the man I was committing to spend the rest of my life with to express my doubts? Because I couldn’t face the fact that I was getting married to distract myself from grieving the death of my father,” she writes. “Because I felt there was no room to question what I’d already put in motion. I couldn’t get out of the marriage, but I could sabotage it.”

Inside Out by Demi Moore

Moore began dating Ashton Kutcher in 2003. In an interview withThe New York Times, published on Sept. 12, More opened up about Kutcher, 41, and their 15-year age difference.

Their relationship felt like “a do-over,” she explained, “like I could just go back in time and experience what it was like to be young, with him — much more so than I’d ever been able to experience it when I was actually in my twenties.”

TheTimesreported that Moore became pregnant after she and Kutcher began dating. She lost the child, a girl who she would have named Chaplin Ray, six months into the pregnancy.

After the couple married in 2005, Moore and Kutcher reportedly sought out fertility treatments, but she began drinking and abusing Vicodin, and the couple divorced in 2013.

According to theTimes, the couple’s split came after Moore learned that Kutcher had cheated on her. TheTimessays Kutcher didn’t respond to their request for comment.

Inside Outis now in stores.

source: people.com