“I was so upset breaking up with him,” Brown, 27, tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue. “I know he really did care about me and he’s such a great guy. I was really confused.”

Brown, who details her life andBachelorfranchise journey in her new bookGod Bless This Mess, ended up withJed Wyatt, her final pick, though theysplitbefore the finale aired.

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THE BACHELORETTE - “1503” - Eight men get the surprise of their life as husband and wife actors Jason Biggs (“American Pie” movies, “Orange Is the New Black”) and Jenny Mollen (TV series “Angel” and “Crash”) take them to a birthing class with hilarious results. Which one of Hannah’s suitors will endure the experience of simulating childbirth? The Bachelorette gets a real-life health scare and one bachelor comes to her rescue. In return, she rewards him with a private concert by Danish pop and soul band Lukas Graham, performing their hit, “Love Someone.” Hannah brings another group of men on a professional photo shoot where they are shocked to find that they are posing with professional models-who are adorable animals. The curious Bachelorette once again employs Demi to share with her what the men do when she is not around, reminiscent of the new Illumination Entertainment film from the creators of “Despicable Me,” “The Secret Life of Pets 2.” Will the guys pass Demi’s test? And later, will one man spin out of control and out of Hannah’s life? The men battle to get a rose, whatever it takes, on “The Bachelorette,” MONDAY, MAY 27 (8:00-10:01 p.m. EDT), on The ABC Television Network. (ABC/John Fleenor) PETER, HANNAH BROWN

Weber and Brown had a strong connection on her season, most notably forgetting intimate during one of their dates; she later spoke out about it during aheated conversationwith contestantLuke Parker.

“I never thought it’d be shown,” Brown recalls. “It was very hard watching that for me, because I felt like I’d let down my faith. I am grateful I had the opportunity to be a voice for other women, but I don’t know if I was ready for it.”

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Hannah Brown’s “God Bless This Mess”.

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Nonetheless, Brown ultimately made an appearance on Weber’s season and the pairhad an emotional interaction.

“Going back and seeing him as the Bachelor, it brought up a lot,” she says. Off camera, “Peter told me he’d quit the show, 100 percent, if I could say that I wanted to be with him. I wanted to go on a date with him, but I couldn’t say that I knew for sure.”

Hannah Brown and Peter Weber.John Fleenor/ABC

HANNAH BROWN, PETER WEBER

Brownleftand Weber ended up engaged to his pickHannah Ann Sluss. His season began airing in January 2020, but soon, “I heard that they were having troubles,” Brown says.

At a Februaryengagement party for Dylan Barbour and Hannah Godwin, Brown and Weber began talking, and then surreptitiously left the party together.

“He was like, ‘I have so much to tell you,'” Brown recalls, writing in her book that the former couple ended up in bed together. “The chemistry just wasn’t there,” she says. “It just sucked. And then, I found out he had another girl [runner-upMadison Prewett] on his mind. It was all so bizarre.”

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Weber ended his engagement with Sluss to explore a relationship with Prewett, though theydidn’t end up back together. Meanwhile, Weber and Brown — who has been datingAdam Woolardfor a year — haven’t spoken since.

“Things might not have turned out the way I expected, but I try to learn from every moment,” she says. “I don’t wish ill on anybody. And I’m in a really good place.”

God Bless This Mess: Learning to Live and Love Through Life’s Best (and Worst) Momentshits bookshelves on Tuesday.

source: people.com