Hayden Panettiereis reflecting on the journey to a healthy body and mind.
Appearing on the cover ofWomen’s Health’s March issue, theNashvilleactress talked about how daughter Kaya, 8, has no idea what her mom has been through.
When it comes to making amends, the actress, 33, said she’s “looking forward to the day where I get to have these conversations with her.”
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“I’m grateful that I’m equipped with the information and with the experience that I’ve had with postpartum depression.”
The actress made the heartbreaking decision for Kaya to go live in Ukraine with Klitschko, Kaya’s father, from whom Panettiere split in 2018.
Hayden Panettiere.Kimber Capriotti for WOMEN’S HEALTH
In an appearance on Facebook Watch’sRed Table Talklast fall, Panettiere said signing the custody papers was the “most heartbreaking thing I’ve ever had to do in my life” — but noted that the way the custody decision was made was “very upsetting” because she wasunaware of the custody agreementuntil Kaya was already in Ukraine.
“I was gonna go work on myself and I was gonna get better, and when I got better that things could change and she could come to me and I could have my time with her,” she explained. “But that didn’t happen.”
Elsewhere in the interview withWomen’s Health, Panettiere talked about how difficult it was to have her real life going through turmoil, then going on the set ofNashvilleand living a similar experience through her character there.
“They wrote my character as having postpartum depression,” the actress said, noting it was during a time when Kaya was back and forth between Nashville and Ukraine with her father. “They wrote that she abandoned her child and went to a different country. And it was very difficult to go on set and to act out these feelings about these things that I was truly going through in my real life.”
source: people.com
